To break, or not to break: That is the Question…

May be it’s in my fate to love and lose. But then, someday… Somewhere realise that the reason I lost every single time was cos I decided not to act. May be the actions I take are not enough…

Will they ever be?
I don’t know…

Will I ever give in more effort?

Do I want to?
Trust me, I do…

But am I allowed to?
No. Not unless I can be sure that breaking it would result in a positive effect for me.

And maybe for that simple stubbornness of mine I might lose out on the one of the most beautiful girls I know.
Or maybe I already have.. Since a long time.

Do I regret it?
Every single moment.

What are rules for, if not make our lives easier!!!

And what is this set of rules I so fiercely follow gives me?
A misplaced sense of self respect…

So, even though I realise how much of an ass I am being, by not breaking or changing them, why am I not acting in a way that would allow me to put my heart at ease and try to come to a closure?
May be cos I am afraid of what the future holds… What her reply would be.

May be I am better off without knowing; ignorance is bliss.
Or is it?

May be I am using my rules as a surrogate so that I may protect myself from the truth.
May be, my rules are a way of hiding my incompetencies and insecurities from myself.
Even if I break them, and try to take action on my own, I can never be sure how far I would be successful.

But then again, it’s not fun to watch a movie whose end you already know…


Happy Mother’s Day…


Do you still remember that proverbial kind of Band-Aids that helped your scraped knee to heal quickly? Well, it was not the kind of Band-aids that helped, but it was mother’s therapeutic kiss.

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2014 in review

The stats helper monkeys prepared a 2014 annual report for this blog.

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A San Francisco cable car holds 60 people. This blog was viewed about 3,100 times in 2014. If it were a cable car, it would take about 52 trips to carry that many people.

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